Institutionalized

(Lil Jay The Ripper, 808 Pimp, Phatboy)

<Lil Jay>
I must maintain and keep focused
And just believe my life is not hopeless
Nevertheless dealt with stress
I must confess
My thoughts my feelings
While staring at the ceiling
Blocking all lights of energy
Cause I feel like death is threatening me
Or is it just my guilty conscience
Of all the dirt i did when i was a kid
So many bids
I flipped my lid
Momma look me in my eyes
Why is my young boy always insitutionalized
I feel like half my mind is paralyzed
My mental frame is shook
So much pain inside you could write a book
Look
Only in time I shall find where this path is taking me
Feels like the devil's raping me
There's no escaping
Envy trendy moves sooth me like the smell of fendy
Send me to a different planet
All this stress at one time i can't handle it
Should I panic?
<808 Pimp>
My sick thoughts cause me to push my problems back
The way I act makes me feel like i'm in the straightjacket
Facts I twist
Heavenly bliss
Dismissed by the violent and the dislist
Causin people to say tisk and task
Reveal my mask opens urge ta blast and laugh
Knowing only half of the shit in my past
The hollow happiness never lasts
So to the next victim
The last of the trash
On to energy to grab add it to my tab
The stab wounds
Scattered platoons
Livin in this fuckin cartoon
With these faded pictures
Livin for the next scriptures
Or only for the body bag
And closing the zipper
Me and the Ripper in the same boat
Flushing morals down the comode
The shit infested inside our soul
Heart of coal to never be whole
If part of us is still living in the old
Because its cold in here
The fear hidden tears
Years of torture
On our peers and family figures
Changes saints to sinners
And summers to winters
Knowledge spit from the beginining
Watch your back if you get trapped
Cause it ain't as simple as it seems to look back.
<Phatboy>
If you ain't got nothing to die for then why do you live
You have taken from existence but what did you give
You have hurt so many people but what did you get
So much pain to remember and that is why we forget
So hard to make a change because I'm so deep in this game
If I stepped out this thang
Would you still know my name?
Would you still come around
Would you still say I'm down
If we were in front of some people, would you still give me a pound?
I'm institutionalized
Because I'm confined to this role
Without a guarantee of a better future
I cannot relieve my tormented soul.